I should have had
so much excitement since I move to Sanur taking in to consideration I love
being in the beach. I spent hours and hours driving down from Ubud to be in the
beach before I moved. But the excitement of moving closer to the beach and office
was not really there.
I loved living in
Ubud and and two hours motorbike riding back and forth everyday to the office seemed
bearable for me as fresh air, tranquility and its vibe were enough to pay all
the tiredness of riding. But for reasons that I couldn`t share here I have no
choice but moving out. I was debating in my heart for several weeks either
staying, look for another house in Ubud, or just move closer to the place I work.
Then here I am,
trying to feel something about Sanur, trying to get the feeling that I really
live here, trying to look places where my heart feel the beat, trying to look
road and path where my feet could stop and just standing there for a while,
trying to search amazing person who inspired me and gave me more strength to
live just like I found in Ubud. None, I found nothing. Perhaps I didn’t give
myself enough time. But come on, a month should be enough to feel better about
a new place. I was this easy going, flexible, and adaptable girl. But this
time, I simply have a hard time.
There must be
reasons; perhaps, I am harder to please now, or I am having this hormone changing
that everything just falls wrong. People said at age 30s you would become a
different one. It might be true in my case.
Back to the first
question, long weekend what am I gonna do?
I used to trick my mind
by having some fun with friends from work. But I guess this time; I simply need
time for myself.
I packed my back
pack though I had no idea where I headed. I packed cloths, foods, creams for a
day or two and off I went. I rode my bike to the south and just followed my
feeling where I wanted to go and ended up parked my bike at Bingin Beach.
It is a surf camp in
between dreamland beach and impossible beach. The only thing I can do there is
sunbathing and swimming as I don’t surf and I don’t have snorkeling gear. But what
the heck, I am coming here to skip my ordinary life in Sanur. A 70.000 IDR basic
room seems ok. But the price for food is overpriced. I am glad I packed some
fruits and foods from home that I don’t have to spend heaps of money for
ordinary taste of food.
I was equipped with
a KOBO reader where I keep hundreds of e books. I made myself promise to finish
one or two during my stay which I finally do J
I wished some
thoughts come to my mind to make me feel better, but still, no thoughts no
inspirations no achievements. I didn’t even do proper yoga or meditation during
my stay. To be honest, I don’t know what to feel. But one thing I still know, I
am a lucky one to have this life now regardless the ups and downs of the life
that I have.
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